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May 2011
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I'm not sure whether it's that they hate me, or that they really think I'm cool.

So murnkay and I were having a discussion in IM about communication. Particularly in the difficulty of getting through all the crap, all the filters people have, the difficulty of truly sharing a thought with someone and knowing that what they got was pretty much what you were trying to get across.

For context, it's useful to know that I got about 3 hours of sleep last night, at best.

[10:12] ysabel: See
[10:12] ysabel: I often have that reaction.
[10:13] ysabel: Which leads me to just go, "Aw, fuck it, it's not worth the trouble."
[10:13] murnkay: It's a writer thing I know it is.
[10:13] murnkay: "I have 4,000 words to tell this entire thing."
[10:13] ysabel: My inner perfectionist kicks in and says, "Don't bother, since we can't do it right anyway."
[10:13] murnkay: or 6 or 8 or 12 it's never enough and sacrfices must be made.
[10:13] murnkay: And sometimes? Yer the sacrifice *smirk*
[10:13] ysabel: That's where I am with the Catherine book right now.
[10:13] ysabel: Books, really.
[10:14] ysabel: I know I can't do her story justice, dammit.
[10:14] murnkay: heh
[10:14] ysabel: And it's such a fucking cool story.
[10:14] ysabel: It makes me want to cry.
[10:14] ysabel: Literally.
[10:14] ysabel: Maybe that's just the tired.
[10:14] * ysabel sighs.
[10:14] * murnkay hugs
[10:14] * ysabel shows you a fairy instead. http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&category=86934&item=6536990286&tc=photo
[10:15] murnkay: hee
[10:16] * ysabel just stares at her faerie oracle deck.
[10:17] ysabel: Jeezus fucking christ.
[10:17] ysabel: Okay, so I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes. Sent you the fairy url, thought about saying something flip like fairies make everything better.
[10:17] murnkay: right
[10:17] ysabel: So I grab a faerie oracle card.
[10:17] ysabel: Flip it over.
[10:18] ysabel: Gloominous Doom. ("Self-defeat. Self-pity. Self-destruction. Taking care of ourselves.")
[10:18] murnkay: lol
[10:18] ysabel: I swear.
[10:19] ysabel: Somehow '2x4' just doesn't have enough force to capture what I get every time I read myself with these things.
[10:19] murnkay: *hug*

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Comments

Muses are tough customers.

Anyway, *I* like you! And not just for your nutritive value!

It's now the next day and I still think you're cool!

I'll keep you updated.

It's been a month and I don't recall seeing an update!

Clearly I am unloved...

*grin*