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May 2011
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So, I'm wondering if maybe my hormone dosages are too low. (I've dropped 'em relatively recently to see where I needed 'em -- I want to take the minimum I realistically can.)

I've felt really unstable lately, with more downs than ups. But I'm not sure if that's just perception. I'm going to try to record emotional state a little more often for a bit here and see if I can get a somewhat more objective retrospective.

This morning I feel unpleasant. Afraid of a variety of things. Sensitive and a little pissy. Wishing for some escapism, but not feeling very connected to reality, so that's probably a bad thing. Really wanting some self-denial as a means of gaining some control, which is often an indication of feeling out of control.

Tummy upset, and my lip hurts, and my head-innards are still feeling about 1.25x too big for my skull (though better than over the weekend -- no ear pain this morning, at least).

Seeing Kate was very cool yesterday. I enjoyed the second showing of Shrek 2 as well...but I also crashed pretty hard after I took Kate home. I'm not sure whether that's an indication that I was down and just using getting to be around someone to hold me up, or what. (And is that a sign of right-now-negative-bias? I don't know.)

I appear to be fairly productive at work this morning.

Current Mood: crankycranky
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I've been crankier than usual lately. Some of it is probably just due to being out of work at the moment, and some of it is just my period. But I really should have my levels checked and maybe consider a higher dose, or even injectables. I can't deal with this forever.