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May 2011
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Ys [userpic]

At least at this point in my life, I am a basically happy person. I spend a lot of my time smiling. I feel happy a lot.

But I wish I could feel satisified more. They're different things, you know.

I wish I could be satisfied with the things I have. They're pretty damn cool, but there's always something I could do better.

In some ways I'm scared of satisfaction. I use my dissatisfaction with everything to try to improve things, but I'm always in improving things mode and never just enjoying what I have.

Even when I am enjoying what I have, I'm not just enjoying what I have. I'm plotting ways to make it better. I'm wishing there was more I could do. I'm wanting things that can't be realized, at least any time soon.

I know of many people who envy what I have, what I've acheived, and so on. But it's never good enough.

I'm never good enough.

Bah.

Current Mood: uncomfortableunsatisfied
Comments

You know what? *Hugs*

happiness

Even when I am enjoying what I have, I'm not just
enjoying what I have. I'm plotting ways to make it
better. I'm wishing there was more I could do. I'm
wanting things that can't be realized, at least any
time soon.

Maybe the persuit of making things better is a type of satisfaction and happiness in its self. I know a few people who seem much more pleased with the state of things when they are working to continualy improve the state of things.